New explorsions! - Library and Reservoir
It was really hot today, and so dry here. I got a cup of Booster juice, then head to public libary. In Taiwan, public libary of Chungli, I never have chance to walk into. In Clagary, there are three libaries,
Fish Creek public libary is the most special one. Not only the architecture, and the thing you can do here. Nice triangle style, unique. You can not only borrow book. also CDs, VHS, soundtracks and DVDs. Many areas are very organized, for kids, for adults, for study and for fun.
We went to
Joey's only seafood reataurant. We had a good deal on Tuesday, all you can eat fish and chips. That was lots of food and I enjoyed it.Mike said they have all you can eat shrimp on another day, I would like to go again and try it!
Mike showed me the Glenmore reservoir on the way home. The was a really nice place and so clean, trees and grass smell nice and fresh. We took a walk aound the reservoir and saw many ducks are playing, swimming. Everything is so nature, and also have their way to keep on. The impressed me a lot.
Another amazing thing is the
recycle system in Calgary. I took some pictures and can show how they obey the law so well.
Mike is out with his friends and I feel a little lazy and rather stay home. Tomorrow I don't know where we will go. But no matter anywhere we go, to me, it is an another explorsion in this country.
Another town near Calgary - Cochrane
During the break time in Calgary, Visiting friends, seems have to be done by Mike. We went to
Indigo, a big bookstore in Signal hill, Calgary, and visited some Mike's co worker. That is a huge bookstore, very organized. The cards there cost a little more. In Taiwan, we can spend 12-15 dollars and you can get a small, nice card. But here you have to spend 5 CAD(1 CAD=26 NTD). That's a lot. I wish I can buy some beautiful cards for you guys, but postcard might be better.
Then we went to Roots outlet store, Gap outstore and HMV record store. But I can't find anything I want. I found a kid's hat, very cute, only 2.5 CAD.That's a good price from Root. So I bought one for my niece.
Mike told me, in another town, Cochrane, which called heart of big hill coutry, there have a fantastic ice cream shop. We dorve 10 minutes away from Calgary, that's is a another small town, which is developing verey well. Lots of new houses, you can many horses beside the road,and everything is cheaper than Calgary. We took a wonderful walk around downtown, and found the ice cream shop, named
Mackay. I ordered Tiger, Mike recommand that for me, tatsesd wonderful.
The trip this year, I eat so much delicious food in Canada. And everything to me is so nice and interesting. Tomorrow we might explore more nice stuff here.I can't wait to share...
Sitting beside road and having your meals...WOW...
After shopping at COSTCO, we went to eat our lunch. Mike told me "there is a place they have many kinds of milkshake. We didn't go last year. How about go there and eat lunch?" Of course I said yes, I am a very courious girl. I would like to have one.
We got there, parked our car and lined up. You can't imagine how many people there, just for the food at
peters' drive in. I ordered mango milkshake, and Mike ordered root beer favor. Tasted really good and strong. I also had a hotdog, because the hamburger in Canada is too big to me. But I had a bit from Mike's, was really good, too. We were eating beside the road, and also I can seee birds were flying around our table. The sence is impossible in Taiwan. Calgary is a very clean, nice place.
Today is Sunday, so the night is for family's. Mike's mom made steak, salad, baked patato fro dinner, was relly delicious. Everyone talked, shared at the dinning table, the feeling was really good.
Mike and I took a walk after dinner at Fish Greek Park, where is a nice place, just like walk in the forest. Too bad I didn't talk picture and show you. I might go again and take more pictures. Then you will know how beactiful is!
Before you get your luggage, please check again!
Mike got to Calgary two days after me. When I was waiting for him with his parents at
Calgary international aiport, I saw many people were waiting for their fammily or friends. That totally like a movie,which one shows about departure and arrival. Everyone could have chance to face that kind of situation and have to to say good bye to your dear then meet again. Sometimes they won't see each other forever because sometimew terrible happend. That will make feel sad. Airport is the place always full of happienss. That's really warm and almost can make cry when I see them hug and kiss...
Somehow, I didn't let Mike kiss me in front of his parents. I don't know, maybe just a liilte culture shy. His mom said" why don't you hug Louise?" Then I just run away and keep saying "it is okay!". I just can't do that in front of friends or family, especially many people I know.
We drove home, talked a little bit. That we got a mesage form the answer machine form a person we don't know. Mike got his luggage bt accident. So that means we have to return his at the air Canada counter. Mike said"At the airport, they always says, before you get your luggage, please check again". And he thought it will never happen on him. But it did happend, just so funny. Good thing we didn't get any troubles.
Then we went to dinner with his parents' friend, Sherol and Jack, at "
Boston Pizza". They are a very nice couple and we already met last year at Cathy's wedding. The food here was really good. Mike and I shared the chicken wings. We had a great talk and made some funny joke. That was really interesting!
My trip seems to be very weel. And I have no problem with the food, that is the one thing I really feel grantful. And I will keep writing my journal and show your guys about my 3 weeks trip in Calgary.
Guess what movie I watch in Calgary?
The second day in Calgary. Still very tired and jetleg hasn't got away from me. So all day, I felt sleepy. Cathy, Mike's sister, alreday made plan and hang out with me at night time. And I really need to do something and not waste time, so I woke up then went out with her.
I told Cathy I can't wait to drink "
Booster juice" in Canada and it is one thing I miss so bad. And she checked yellow book. In 10 minutes, I got my Booster juice. You can't imagine how great it taste like, and the Mango hurricane is my favorite one. Cathy ordered one for her, and she liked , too.
While we were waiting for Chris, her husband, at home, Cathy showed me pictures in Cuba, the country they went for honeymoon.When Chris got home,we wemt to watch movie. It is hard to choose a movie here. The biggest problem is they don't have subtitles. Sometimes if they talk vey fast, then I can't catch. So..Guess what movie I watch? A great and easy one -
Shrek 2.
Compare the movie theather in Taiwan isn't lots of different.They will show movie's trailer at the beginning , and also show some commerical AD before the movie. Shrek 2 is a very funny, interesting movie. And We laughed all the time. I am happy everyone enjoyed this movie. (Chris wants to see the spider man 2, but have't show in Canada yet. And we forced him to watch this movie, which one he said only for girls and kids. But he likes, too.)
I had a great time with them and they treated me very well. I feel bad Cathy always pay my bill, my booster juice, my movie ticket and popcorn. I am a guest, they said, should be treated very well.I really like spending time with them and had more wonderful memories not only with Mike.
He will be home in 4 hours, and I can't wait to see him at airport. Then we can go shooping and do some something we haven't done last year. It makes me feel really excited!
Calgary is a nice place to grow up, now I believe why Mike said that to me..........
Hey, everyone...I am in Calgary!
Flying all the way cross the pacific ocean, finally I am in Calgary, Canada. Everything is the same then last year and the weather is nice, the sky is blue and also can see green tree and grass everywhere. I am so happy I am here again.
Mike's dad and his sisiter,Cathy, were waiting for me at the airport. It's really nice to see them and we also hug each other. To me, they are like my family,and not just friend's friends.
We drove home and relax for a little bit. Then I went to the neigbours next door. I heard the family, their family name is CHEN, came from Taiwan. I knocked the door, then they know who I am right away. I think because Mike's parents told them about me before. they have stayed here for 6 years and they love here. Somehow they got TVBS channel at home. That remind me a lot about Taiwan. And they said they will have the entertain program of "Chang,Faye".How amazing, right? We had a wonderful talk, shared the feeling about Canada and also the election. Canada will have an important election on June 28, and very competite. That's good, then I can see how is the deomarocy working in Canada!
Mike's dad and I went to eat dinner after I hang out with the CHEN family. We went to a vinemese restaurant, and ordered some spring rolls, shrimp rolls and medium rare beef rice noodle soup. they all tasted really good and my stomach felt satisified about that.That's too bad they don't have name card or I can show you when I am in Taiwan.
So far, everything is good and nice. I hope I can type Chinese. Sometimes some truly feeling is very hard to show by English. When Mike gets here, maybe he can try to get Chinese typing for me.
Take good care, my friends. The trip this year will better than last year. I am so sure...
沒有足夠的金錢那裡來的自我實現？
到底要怎樣才可以賺很多錢呢？最近我腦海裡一直浮現這個疑問。
每個人或許會說賺錢又不是人生唯一的目標，能夠開心的過著每一天才是幸福的。但是，如果你連最基本的經濟條件都沒有，那要怎麼快樂？又要怎麼去談自我的實現？
世界是不公平的。有很多事我們是不可以選擇的。我們不可以選擇我們誕生的家庭；我們不可以選擇外表的條件；我們不可以選擇護照上的國家。有很多事，是一出生就註定好的。
要快樂，就要去好好學會珍惜那些可以決定的。決定什麼工作；決定怎樣的男友；決定怎樣的髮色；決定今天應該穿什麼去赴約。
還好我還擁有一些可以做決定的事，否則人生的只能用水深火熱來形容的。
誰能告訴我有什麼賺錢的方法？
成功者必有重賞。
那些來來去去的.....我會試著放棄！
突然的，有一種很深的感慨，即使當初在怎樣患難與共的友情，終有一天會昇華，成為偶而才會聯絡的朋友。只又能在同學會或是結婚典禮上才會在度重逢。過去，我很在乎這種感覺，每次只要又失去聯絡，我就會難過好久好久不能自己。而現在我想我是想開了，很多感情不能強求，友誼也是。
每個過程中，都會有一群朋友陪你一起歷經。小學一起玩耍，一起因為班上那個功課很好的班長而有畢生初次的girl's talk；國中面對升學考試的壓力，還一起同仇敵愾的對付那個討厭的數學老師兼班導；到了專科為了社團盡心盡力，也為了同時喜歡上一個學長然後不說話好久。每一段都是那麼與眾不同，都是那麼可歌可泣。可是不知為了什麼，一但出了社會，各自有著各自的生活重心 (不管是工作還是談戀愛或是家庭) ，聯絡變少了，共同的話題也越來越少了。偶爾的聚會變成難得可貴，從每個月的聚會變成每兩個月，後來又會變成每季，之後又會拉得多長就不得而知了。
最近，發生很多類似的事。約好的約會流了；那個朋友不再跟你說心事了，他的事情你是由別人才得知的；另外一個同事交了男友也不熱衷於姊妹們的會面，還有許多許多。最後，我放開了..........
來來去去，就像季節的交迭，規律的、無聲無息的。
我感嘆季節的變化，也會喟嘆人世的無常。
但是，我想我是該放棄不強求的。才會真正享受當下，珍惜生活。
是突然，有了這個深刻的體會與領悟。
在現在，凌晨一點的時分。
在台灣，婚禮是一齣商業化的戲劇
再過不到一個禮拜的時間，我就要坐上
國泰航空的班機飛往加拿大-卡加立。和我不太熟的朋友可能不知道，
卡加立其實是麥克的家鄉，這次前去不過是麥克一年一次的長假，同時還要參加他好友-Cody的婚禮。
大家或許都對西式的婚禮感到心神嚮往，有著鮮花，白沙，或是在海邊吹著徐徐微風說著我願意。其實參加過去年麥克姐姐-Cathy的婚禮，真的覺得她們那樣的婚禮安排方式真的讓人感覺溫馨又感動。只有親人摯友出席，分別坐在位子上，聆聽證婚人說著愛情美好的誓約，婚姻結合的神聖....
然而台灣的"流水席式"喜酒，來的多半是父母的朋友，席開五十百桌是常有的事。新人必須端著酒杯和不熟的賓客敬酒是傳統。到上了幾到菜之後，雙方家長一定要跟著到台上，聽那些言不及義的祝福，台下根本是鬧轟轟的一堆。嘴裡懸著的半口肉，互相吆和喝著酒，誰還管台上的人在說什麼！接著新人一定又要留在上台被主持人戲弄一番(交杯酒、當眾親吻還計時.......)感覺就是大家極盡其能的捉弄新人。(我先說好，到時候我結婚別玩這些有的沒的)我覺得台灣的婚禮就像是在演戲，演著一齣商業化討好觀眾的戲，而主角多半是身不由己，也不是自己期待的。如果婚禮是一生一次，可不可以有選擇呢？
雖然婚禮還遠遠超出我目前計畫的範圍，但是看過身邊那麼多的婚禮我也心有感觸。婚禮只是排場，不是證明幸福的標準。若是大家都能明白這一點，或許就對愛情、婚禮、白紗、喜餅、結婚照不會有那麼多的期待。婚禮之後兩個人相處和個性的磨合才是正要上場的好戲。
我那些即將結婚的朋友可別打我，我有好康的。柯達舉辦"
六月新娘，網路票選活動"，有空上去票選，也給自己的婚紗一點想法。至於數位相機，大家就加油囉！雖然對台灣的婚禮不與置評，但是我的朋友們還是前仆後繼的呀！
我是需要獲得共鳴的
「一直怕來不及，所以要告訴你...........」隱約記得這是陳珊妮某張專輯的某首歌，歌名和歌詞已經不可考了，現在突然又可以哼起這首歌的旋律。
有人說：每種行業都是一種表演事業。如果你不懂的讓別人發現你或是將自己表現出來讓別人知道，這樣就太不尊重你的職業了。我覺得這些話倒是說的很有道理。每種事業都需要和別人交談，都需要和別人溝通和接洽才可以將每件事按部就班的完成。這或許也是為什麼說人比較無法離群索居而傾向於過群居生活！
做的每件事其實或多或少都需要別人的共鳴吧！工作需要得到老闆的肯定；談戀愛需要對方的互動；否則自己一人付出，自己一人在那悉心努力，沒有人會知道的。或許有人會說：我不需要肯定，單方的付出也是會令我開心。好呀！你做了十個月或許還樂在其中但是三年、五年、十年你還是可以這樣不改初衷嘛？再邁入快要三十歲的關口，很多事情的看法我都表現的和在剛出社會的自己不同，熟稔的朋友還是不間斷聯絡著，但是有一些斷了音訊的，就沒有再連絡過了。很多感情是不行強求，愛情、友情如是。
我是需要共鳴的。
我希望老闆可以說我工作表現很好。
我希望愛人可以告訴我他有多麼地愛我。
我希望朋友可以互相直持鼓勵。
我希望寫出去的明信片可以讓人感覺溫暖。
我希望我的網頁中所寫的隻字片語有得到共鳴。
我是一個需要被鼓勵的女人，但誰又不是呢？
多愛自己一點
也不知道為什麼，最近腦海中常常浮現"死亡"這兩個字。生活中沒有發生特別不開心的事，應該說一切都和以往一樣沒有什麼特別的。可是為什麼這個念頭一直浮現呢？
記得以前專科的時候國文課曾經上過"生死學"，我們不避諱的在課堂中談論生死、寫遺書。說真的，作為一名醫護人員對於生死應該是要看的很開，而且應該是要視為人生的一個過程，學會珍惜當下，然後坦然面對。我們談論的言之有物，似乎每個人都會得到這堂課所預期應該要有的結果。
但是生與死，其實是多麼沉重的兩件事呢？絕不是幾堂課就可以坦然放下的。最近這個念頭過於強烈，讓我擔心了起來，讓我在騎車的時候速度也跟著放慢。
凡是還是當心點好。
死亡確實是一個人必經的過程，總有一天我也會告別在人世間所有的一切然後離開到一個未知的地方。每天都要過的開心又幸福這才是對自己人生應有的尊重。每天我都要在對自己說著美好的生命是值得耕耘的，開心的度過每一天，然後不枉此生.......
別忘了要多愛自己一點歐！
葉子咖啡
這家葉子咖啡是意外發現的。室內藍色的燈光，是吸引我進去的主因。位於清雲技術學院附近，東西還不錯吃，價格也不至於太昂貴。我想：會取名為葉子，應該只是葉子這首歌實在是太紅了。很多人或許是因為名字而爭相造訪。
我去過了兩次，原因是經濟因素，和離家也近。而那面綠油油的幸運草牆面，看起來像是真的。
開一家咖啡店應該要有些特色，我想他抓到了。至於究竟能吸引多少的眼光，就讓時間去證明囉！
你對台北的看法
你住在台北嗎？妳會如何介紹自己所居住的這個城市？城市的記憶、城市的慾望、城市的符號……一切的一切，跟你的記憶、你的慾望、你的符號……有什麼關連？
還有，本劇利用「旅遊 」這種經歷所產生的陌生化作用，使觀眾從固有的時間中解放出來，從新認識「在地」與「當下」........
這是台灣
渥克劇團七月份的新戲(台北錯誤旅遊)，在看過DM之後就很想去看了。
生長這麼久的台灣，你知道別人都是怎麼看待我們的嗎？不說台灣，你知道台北之於台灣又代表什麼意義呢？我知道台北就好像台灣的大門口一樣，到訪台灣的國外朋友，一定都會到訪台北。那麼台北真的可以稱為世界之都嗎？我們的硬體軟體已經足夠讓他人嘖嘖稱奇了嗎？我們又有什麼特別的地方可以讓別人再三玩味呢？
有人說
誠品書店。敦化南路上24小時的那一間。
有人說是小籠包。還有很多日本女生因為愛吃還專程來台灣學藝。
有人說是
故宮博物院。典藏著中國幾千年的歷史。
有人說是
Taipei 101。或許吧！但這樣的高樓哪沒有？
難道只有這些嗎？
我希望大家可以來想想，台北究竟有什麼過人之處？
至於那齣劇，我人當時在加拿大，可能無緣去觀賞了。
大螢幕下的我們
昨天晚上下班後到威尼斯準備要看Harry Potter-The prison of Azikaban。
聽很多人說這一集比前兩集都還要好看，看見大排長龍的隊伍出現在非假日的夜晚，這回我倒是相信了。準備進場前，看見一群約似大學生的三五好友，穿著黑色連身的學士服，明眼人都看的出來他們一定是為Harry Potter而大肆裝扮的。台灣的瘋狂這回可見一班。Mike說國外只有在opening night才會這樣，真後悔沒帶數位相機把那付景象拍下來，你們就會了解我到底再說些什麼！
看完了電影，我的反應是平平。Mike也顯得很沉默。不曉得是不是因為我們兩個每次再看完電影之後，都會有點小小的意見不合。他的西方眼光有時讓我真的很不是苟同，而我又很堅持我的。所以，接下來就可想而知囉！
再甜蜜的情侶都會有意見不合的時候。
我和麥克各有各的喜好，但是我們都尊重對方的。在沒有交會的興趣之餘，還是有可以蹦出火花的東西。其實，和一各外國人交往真的不是一件非常簡單的事。(若跟華裔應該就會比較好吧！)但是，我還視覺得對我們的未來很有信心，兩個人的眼光一致，都朝同一地方張望....
生活、感情就是這麼一回事。
我想要的生活
最近的班表緊繃(除了正常排班之外，還去門診兼差)，真的有點讓我回想起過去上完班又要趕著去上課的感覺。時間是被壓的死死的，但是卻是日子過的容易，錢當然也比較多囉！為了貼補三個星期的無薪生活(因為要去加拿大呀！)，我只好加減賺一點囉！雖然時薪不比以前教書多，但是處於自己自在而且熟悉的領域，時間和金錢的互動和標準也就不是那麼的重要。
有個朋友問我：現在的生活就是你想要的生活嗎？其實當然和我過去所以期待的相差甚遠。我希望自己能在唸書。這各念頭轉了很久，一直希望等到家裡情況允許，我才會著手去進行；一直希望能好好的一個人生活，誰知半途殺出了麥克這個人，我的感情生活再度灌溉，如今也甘之如飴。這就是我想要的生活嗎？應該說：現在的一切是我意外獲得的生活！我過去從來沒有想過的！
本來計畫永遠是追不上計畫的。我的生活路程也隨著接觸到的人事物而慢慢有了改變。以後會怎麼樣我不敢說，但是我相信我一定會試著讓當下的每一刻都過的充實又愉快！即使碰的難過或是不如己願的事情，也要笑笑的擦乾淚重新再出發。
最近真的是很累的。疏於和大家聯絡就在這裡和大家說個sorry囉！
我的網頁新發現
我試著貼照片，結果是成功了。
這是我最近去
六福村的照片，其中比較好看的一張。最近變胖很多，我正在例行減肥計畫想要瘦下來。說是減肥計畫也沒什麼啦！只是盡量在晚餐時不要吃的太多，在九點之後不要再進食。希望這樣可以也明顯的進步。
等著我的好消息吧！
我和我的朋友(一)-希望你能幸福
我想我是應該可以理解你為什麼要讓另一個男人在你生命中出現，卻也並沒有和前任男友說再見。就在我們促膝長談之後。感情這種事本來就沒有所謂的對錯，更何況我更相信感情這碼子的事絕對是一個願打，而另一個願挨。你們當初轟轟烈烈的愛情在人群之間傳開，的確也是羨煞不少眼光。
你一直是需要愛情的。在我認識你那麼久之後，對於這一點我是絕對相信的。你的感情一直以來的風風雨雨，卻絲毫未曾打敗你。今天這樣的事，我除了傾聽你的需求我也不知道我可以幫忙你什麼，但是我相信你：你一定知道自己在做什麼的。
過去，我對感情的要求過於潔癖。我不能容許自己或朋友做別人的第三者，但是現在，我的界線放寬了。我可以試著去了解他們的心情，因為有些第三者是既無辜又無知的，當男人刻意的矇蔽了所有，感情已經不會是單純的你來我往而已。
對於你處理自己的感情斷的不乾不淨，我想我還是可以接受。宣告沒有未來的他還是心甘情願地對你好，我又能說什麼呢？或許這是感情的另種包容吧！
我希望你是幸福的。在跌跌撞撞之後。
我對自己說著.....
這幾天我坐在電腦桌前面，想了好久，好多心情在腦海裡打轉，但是要將它變成文字，突然有種辭窮，不知道應該寫些什麼的感覺。最近社會上發生的很多很誇張也很混亂的事，教練殺死學生，
日本小女生被同學割喉身亡，
患有精神疾病的女兒拿水果刀殺死自己的母親，一堆黑心的產品充斥在整個社會，我們的社會究竟是怎麼了？
最近我的日子過得十分的安穩，自從五月底兩天一夜的花蓮之旅之後，我開始投入忙碌的生活，為了即將到來一個月的無薪生活開始做準備。有時候甚至疲憊的也不想去管其他的事，回到家看看電視，上上網，有機會或有時間的話就和朋友在線上聊聊天，日子平靜地，緩慢地，安穩到幾乎察覺不出來自己是在用什麼方式過日子。工作偶爾的不悅和低潮，或許是這些日子中起伏比較明顯的波浪，然後成為自己生命的一部份。
但是意外的是，我還是開心的。即使這些日子不再像過去那樣的活躍於社交圈、不像過去那麼頻繁的和朋友連絡吃飯、不再像過去那樣那麼終日汲汲於新鮮事務。因為我知道：所以的一切都還是必須要花費，如果不去做，才可以杜絕太多意外的開銷。因為賺錢真的是非常不容易，錢越來越小，我的慾望也變小了。
已經忘了上次買衣服是什麼時候？最近即使穿著朋友的二手衣也覺得開心。
上次看的電影是〝Troy〞，但是是麥克出的錢。
最近買的一雙鞋子是PUMA的布鞋，但也是麥克買的。
最近一次去
Starbucks喝咖啡的時間也已經忘記。
最近的一次旅行是我和麥克兩週年兩天一夜的花蓮之旅，也是麥克去計畫並支出了所有的一切。
我想：無慾才可以無求吧！
在我這段安穩的生活中，有時候會忽然懷疑起一些以前從來不曾疑惑的事情，忽然失去了對一些事物的熱情。但是，至少明信片的書寫至今還是我和外界最主要的一個溝通方式，也是和我自己朋友的。不喜歡講電話，喜歡用筆跡紀錄自己的感覺，這是一直以來都還是存在並且堅持的。想想，有時候過過這種安定與平凡的生活，這種完全不同以往忙碌疲憊及歡娛的生活，或許是讓我在我的生命中對自己人生的另種解釋與揮霍。或許它也會在我生命中存在著不同以往比較激情明亮的意義，產生的幽暗也讓自己油然而敬。以後，然後在我往後的人生，若是回想起這一段日子，會有種不同態度去看待自己比較快活節奏強烈的一面,還有另纇比較鮮為人知的陰暗面。
而這樣的化合之後，就是我。
獨一無二但是卻努力往前走的我。
會大笑也會為一些事情澘然落淚的我。
在這些剖析之後，我還是喜歡這樣的我，不是絕對完美但是細心敏感的我。
